||32||: First, Affirm Yo Self

July 2020

I’ve been the girl that sought others (solely) for affirmation. Such as hey look at me, and tell me I’m pretty, tell me I’m enough, tell me I’m valuable. I call that, an energy vampire, those were my teen years and I’m not proud of it.
These past few years, I’ve learned to be one with myself, to enjoy my own company and make sure that my vibration is so high, my solitude is cherished.

We all need a little encouragement, and it sure feels good to hear someone say, keep going and you’re doing a great job. At the same time, what if that never happens, what shall one do then?


If you search affirmations online, you’ll find a list of many mottos that you and I can repeatedly daily. And it helps especially if your home isn’t stable or even you yourself— your physical home & mental space is cluttered with self hate and negativity. It’s time to clean out space and spend time looking at our tousled furniture, the words we repeat to ourselves.
I have a large standing mirror in my room and when I get home from serving others, I stand naked in front of the mirror and speak highly about every part of my body, I put on music and I dance, I sing, I have fun like I’m a fun sleepover…

I repeat:

  • Hey you handsome darling.
  • Hey you sexy, beautiful, foxy lady.
  • I am enough.
  • I am valuable.
  • I am precious.
  • I belong here in this world.
  • I have something special to offer.
  • I can do what I set my mind, heart, and hands to do.

Even if you don’t believe it, still repeat it and soon you’ll smile and your subconscious will internalize the words as truth and you’ll start standing straight with your shoulders back.

I’m telling you this now because its working for me and when I become low, when my energy is depleted, I return to the affirmations and I’ll return to this article as a reminder.

Test it out for yourself.
The proof is in your own personal experience.

After years of repetition, my mental health is showing improvement.
In the past, I strongly disliked my body, my weight and the distribution of fat in my body and my long legs, I thought they looked gangly & disproportionate.
Now I tell myself, look at me now:

  • I am fierce.
  • I am golden.
  • I radiate good energy + positivity.
  • I enjoy my own company.
  • I am encouraging and welcoming to myself and others.
  • I love my body.
  • I love my entire self.

Enjoy the unknown time given on this earth, to witness and experience HOW GREAT YOU ARE —- RIGHT NOW.

With Gratitude to all who are reading,

||30||: The Reason I Started Writing

Hello everyone!!! It started with a voice note and the need to motivate myself and others, so I’m sharing.
This is part of my story as a writer:

The reason I started writing was and still is to put my numerous thoughts on paper. It has been helpful, it feels like a release, like finally the weight I’m carrying can be placed carefully on the weight rack. Then ahhh (deep inhale + exhale) my thoughts have a home.

I have a large family and in a group of many voices, I wanted my voice to be heard. So, to build the courage to speak, I started with writing in my journal, sending letters, poems saved on my flash drive, songs made up on voice notes. I’ve tried many things to soothing myself, in hopes to heal.

As a child you hear and see the motto illustrated “children are meant to be seen and not heard”. I had to be quiet, but I too had feelings and my opinion had to be diluted out of respect for my elders. I didn’t want to wait my turn to talk, I wanted to share my thoughts immediately.

So I turned to writing. I kept many journals, I’d daydream in class with scribbles and doddles on any paper. I also had a chunky monitor and keyboard in my room, I loved that computer that fit carefully in the nook of my room, I was proud of it. My own device to pour out all emotion. I would type like a tap dance across the keyboard. The faster I typed and heard the sounds under my finger tips, the more I felt in control. The more I felt like the driver of my own vehicle. Someone is listening and it started with me. Somewhere in the universe my thoughts were visible even if I was the only viewer.

It takes courage to write. It takes courage to share. It takes courage to think about it long enough and then say the words out loud, yes this is really how I’m feeling, no filter, no chase. Back then I thought, I can’t believe I feel this way, oh well, someone has to say it because no one is talking about it.

Soon I would share my written thoughts with my parents. If we had a major disagreements, I would share a letter with my Mom & Dad, back then my boyfriend and now my husband. Sometimes I’d look back at my text and think Oi! That was harsh. Cringe. I wish I said it differently. That was my frame of reference at the time, That was my level of maturity. It was what I had to offer, and I did my best.
It’s kinda cool and introspective to see how I thought a couple weeks ago or years ago. It’s humbling really, to realize that I’m constantly learning that I don’t know as much as I thought and I’m a sponge soaking up new information for education.

I’ve started and restarted blogging many times, talked myself out of writing. I’ll admit that I am sacred and not always disciplined. Still I keep writing, that’s the important part, to keep on pressing.
It’s a skill to be able to share what you’re feeling on paper and revise and clearly articulate a point of view.

I want to Celebrate now and today this is my 30th post. I am excited to feel and know that I will achieve and pass each mark.

My ultimate goal is to be a writer. And that I am.
I’m a writer paid or not paid, published here and soon on a well known space. I am a writer.
That’s it, Claim it, Own it, Embody it!
Whether or not you think you do it well.
I am who I say I am. I am a writer and I am a singer, simply because I write and sing. Whether or not the world knows my name.


  • Continue Doing What You Do: Fine Tuned & Flawed, Keep on working at your craft. I will keep going and I will keep growing.
  • Own it! Claim & Declare who you are. (Once you’re doing your craft consistently/deliberately/intentionally, that’s who you are because you say so) Repeat who you are & Affirm yourself daily. I am a writer. I am a singer. I am a creator.
  • Celebrate the possible and impossible. I want to write a book, and today I’m claiming it is possible, and will move in the direction of my intention. I am happy and grateful that I’ve completed a book & collection of poems.

With Love + Light,